A Daughter of the King?
It seems like monthly I have to remind myself why I’m here and what my purpose is in this life. My focus can be so easily shifted when I get a little bit stressed out or too busy. The newest stressor, which isn’t actually very new at all, is the question “What are you doing after graduation?” Most people that ask me that don’t even know I’m graduating late or that I really have no idea where I’ll be a year from now or what I’ll be doing. So when my heart suddenly get so anxious when people as me that question what does that say about my trust in God?
Am I actually trusting Him to reveal His plan for my future in His time, or am I just pushing it to the back of my mind and just not letting myself dwell on the uncertainty? I’m still not sure. I would like to say that my trust in God and His promises is growing daily, but honestly I guess I won’t really know until I hit a bigger mile stone or until I can look back on this time and realize that my focus really was where it needed to be that God brought me through the uncertainty in His time.
When I have conversations with people about this they tell me that my suffering is temporary. I guess that’s where I get thrown off course. I don’t really feel like I’m suffering, I’m just not getting my way. Some things that I took away from church a couple weeks ago that I keep reminding myself and those around me of are:
-God is faithful, He ALWAYS does what He says.
-I will stumble and fall, but don’t lose heart.
-When I want to ask why this is happening (whatever the struggle may be), remember what happened in Jesus’ life. If I am “suffering” or struggling, God is treating me as His child... like a father disciplines his own child.
-I need to focus on listening to God’s voice so that I can continue to grow and mature. He is giving me an amazing opportunity to gain perspective about life that I never would have otherwise.
*life is difficult and there are hard times that require great perseverance, but its all worth it to live in communion with God.
Jesus Paid it All, all to Him I owe.
A lot of exciting things happened this month. So regardless of the crazy business that surrounded it, I still have SO MUCH to be thankful for. One of the highlights was definitely getting to see my best friend Danielle. She is getting married next summer! So excited for her and can’t wait to be a part of that day! I have been so blessed by her friendship over the years and now its more of a blessing than ever!
I also got to spend some quality time with one of my best friends for her belated birthday at Sips and Strokes! We painted these really cool peacocks!
Also, I never cease to be amazed by the incredible family God has blessed me with. Getting to spend Thanksgiving with them was such an encouragement! I also got to see some friends that I have had since before I can remember. It was so good to catch up with everyone and reconnect. One of the highlights, as always, was seeing my nephew. He really does bring a smile to my face regardless of whats going on!
At the end of the day, I've got it pretty great. HE is jealous for me, loves me, and has blessed me with more than I deserve. Now to learn to be patient and let Him reveal His incredible plan for my life day by day.
